realized

it just occured to me that i don't laugh as much as i used to. i miss that. maybe that's what's wrong. somebody at the bar commented about somebody's annoying cackle. i said nothing wrong with happy people. got me thinking about how much i miss the laughter and happy people. don't get me wrong i have wonderfull friends AJ and Ida who make me laugh all the time, but there is such a hole in my life i don't think i'll ever fill.