crazy times

i have been a bad blogger. there is so much going on i don't know that i want to wrote about. i probably should, but i think my hesitance to do so is more of a defense mechanism. after 12+ years it looks like H and i are "altering" our relationship. the distance is a big issue. we don't really have this change defined yet. work is busy but getting better stress wise. i'll try to write more often. maybe it will help. time will tell. take care y'all.